Sunday, December 24, 2006

As christmas approaches, and so is the new
year. I wonder where fate will lead me to next.
There is just so much i really want to do. And
the more i think about it, more and more
questions and uncertainty starts to surface.
I dont think i would normally think this way,
but the 2 years i am to spend in ns is certainly
going to leave a gap in my life.

- will the seniors still be in contact?
- how will it feel like to meet female friends
again after ns and realising they are 2 years
your senior.
- will i still come back to help the team?
- Looking at the way local Unis train for
dragonboat, which i dont agree on, will
i make myself suit the training so i can
row again or will i just not bother?
- will i even try out for another D'boat
team?
- With the money earned in ns, I will definitely
return to my first love, cycling. If so, will i take
up the xc dicipline or the road dicipline?
- If i were to train for races, would i still have time
to take part in other activities? eg. canoe polo
- How will i be like after NS?
- After placing relationships behind my mind for
these few years, will i be ready to have someone
in my life again?
- What will i expect of myself?
- how will the team be like 2 years later?
- will i be still in contact with the grandseniors?
- Will i still be as happy-go-lucky?
and so many many more.

So many questions.

Only the next 2 years will answer them.

2009, i await your coming.