Monday, June 12, 2006

Haiz dreamt of her again last night...thats not all just dreamt of her in my nap!! Dunno whether to feel frustrated or to feel overjoyed about it. But i do know that the moment i see her in my dream i do feel a sense of happiness. Each time trying to overcome the temptation of smsing her, now y do i do that? Maybe cos i ended one not too long ago? Maybe cos somewhere deep down inside me i know its not possible for us to be together. Haha but now i'm kinda laughing at the state at i'm in, thought its over but looks like it is yet to be over and God still has plans for me during this period of time. WELL i'm still waiting and trusting him :)

Well down to today's training, today it really killed my upper back, aching all over. Well the feeling today was quite good, although the timing didnt quite show but well i guess i don't quite care about the timing anymore and juz gonna go for the feeling. Whether we make it into the finals on saturday i don't really care, what i do want is to get the feeling of everyone pushing and fighting hard. That is when i will say the team is really one. That is all that i want from the guys for now, just wanna row my heart and guts out wif all of my guys, juniors and seniors alike :D But well to describe how much i want the team to be one is that if it ever was possible (now dun laugh or tease me here) i would also be willing to row with the girls team, cos i feel they have all push hard and i can see it in them and am really proud and honoured to have them as my fellow teammates. Wouldnt want to trade any girls or guys in my team for anyone else in the world cause i feel that we are all here with a common purpose to be an AC rower. To experience a feeling that has left generations of team wif great memories, and even spurred them on to do greater stuff in life.