Saturday, June 10, 2006

Had a bad training today

And it didn't help that
competition day is in a
week's time.

Somehow, no matter how
hard I try to push myself,
the boat just wouldn't go any
faster. Utterly Fustrating.

Went for a long run after
training by myself from sdba
to sheares bridge to
reorganise my thoughts.
Running through this route
again brought back
warm memories of the days
when I was still training with
the seniors. These memories
never fails to bring a smile
back to me.

I would do anything to
have the same emotions
I felt after last year's
nationals.

Pride, Joy, Love and even
sadness that it would be the
last time rowing with seniors.
Medals and timings didn't
mattered then. Only Faith,
Love and the AC spirit held
me through. That feeling is
irreplaceable and priceless.

Communicating with juniors
has become increasingly difficult
Somehow. I feel that there is
a invisible barrier between us.
The tight knitted and family
like feeling last year never really
existed. Could still fondly remember
the team meals, the times at
the pullup bars, the daily
canoeing table with seniors
and juniors. The overwhelming
number of juniors might be
the reason for this gap.

I feel worn out and tired.
But I feel people around me
supporting me through this
intense period.

For the team, ted and the other
grandseniors, especially Amy and
Winny, I will never give up.

All the happy times seemed just
like yesterday.

So little time left.

I hope miracles happen.

Lucas